i haven't been updating my page in a while, because january has been a bit of a nightmare. february is looking that way, too.
for reasons that might be ovious, i've been getting into david lynch's filmography lately. i've seen wild at heart and the first season and a half of twin peaks, and i'll say i'm dissappointed i didn't take the dive sooner. every so often while watching twin peaks i'll connect the dots on other media i love and how it's inspired by lynch's works.
today i went to the doctor for the first time in 2 years! spectacular. this also happens to be the first time since i was a child that my physician has fully listened to me, and take my queries and problems seriously. it's amazing and frankly refreshing, but my doctor was sort of horrified when i told her about my other treatment with other doctors. woopsie.
new year new me! well, not entirely. i've been ramping up my productivity, and trying to engage more in my hobbies, but that's more as a continuation from before the new year.
i've been thinking about new years' resolutions, lately. i think the common conception of them never tends to work for me. that's not an uncommon take, but whatever, sue me. i've started to think that a better exercise would be to give up, or "forgive myself" for something in the following year. using the potential of the new year to look back on the last, and not carry something into this new year.
i think what i want to leave behind in 2024 is the deference and indecision that plagued my year. i let alot of things happen at me, and i want to take charge of my narrative in 2025.
the sparse updates are on account of work being fucked up and evil, but i luckily have several days off in a row after tomorrow. i spent the night of yule as a guest in a new friend's apartment, doing rituals and watching shitty movies. an impromptu movie review: the new wonka movie is terrible as expected.
i'm thinking of starting a pagan subsection of my blog, a public-facing portion of my grimoire, as it were, since the rest of my website has helped me keep consistent with my creative projects, i don't see why I couldn't do the same thing with my occult practices.
since the anime season has ended, all of the shows i'm current on are wrapping up, which means my reviews will be written up shortly.
with a lot of help and elbow grease i've been really enjoying putting together this site, i have the rough draft of a ranma review up, it's not very coherent, but it's a good example of what my use of the website will end up being like.
doubt all of those sample reviews will actually be the reviews i write, but it's helpful to fill out the page for now. i think the next update i want to make will be the rough drafts of Cute Thing Chapter 3, which has been sitting on my hard drive for the better part of a year now.
while yesterday was about getting the skeleton up and running, today was about getting everything settled into a consistent language that i can tweak and build upon, and it's starting to look really good.
i've been told that it's a massive improvement over two day's time, but it really doesn't feel like much. i'm really enjoying the puzzle that is this process. thinking up a thing to do, then figuring out how to do it, asking for help along the way if i need it, which i often did in the very beginning, as is the way of things.
i'm learning to learn on my own, and that's important. it feels good to be passionate about a project, even if it's something silly like making my own personal website.
PS don't mind the eevee down there, she's keeping space at the bottom of the page.
today, i started making my own website! i'm hoping that it will motivate me to post more art, and to make more in general. i'm also looking to get off of social media, as i'm struggling a lot with both phone addiction as well as, i constantly run into discourse, and want to stop having to block people about it. hopefully this can be a respite from the hellish existence of tumblr, let's see if the passion here sticks.
i'm looking to post scripts, photography, and music on here, as well as generally blog about my life, and put my opinions out onto the netwaves about various things i'm passionate about, which you can find conveniently separated by subject on the fancy sidebar, though the articles are just examples right now. i haven't posted a single review yet.